Hold me tight through the night please don't ever let me go sing to me, sing so sweetly, this is the best love i'll ever know. I love you and everything you do just stay here�with me tonight say you love me and here your'll be with me until the morning light. Our love is the best forget the rest we were made for each other. You know�it's true, and i do, too i know�we'll never find another.�Hold me tight through the night please, don't let me go sing to me, sing so sweetly, this is the best love i'll ever know.
This world is so dark, this world so bright, ths world is evil, this world is so kind, this world is a drawing, this world so a fantasy, its got her heavens and it got her hells this world has everything, it'll ring a bell in this world i got a fear thats cuts like a knife in this world i got a life that is filled with so many blue in this world�and�all i want is a life time with you.
Hot and minty cooling�rush when it touches my tongue, i can feel the words inscribing themselfs deep within, but quickly fading away the after taste stays in my mouth but not for�too long.�
Just when I was thinking all good thoughts about D. I get thrown into the deep end of his "stupid" pool. It came at me very unexpectedly, doesn't usually? The PC guy was at the house to install a new tower, he had to transfer a bunch of stuff from the old to the new and he had to ask me questions about this and that, ok, everythings fine until...He shows me a series of pix that he couldn't transfer due to a fault in the file, he asks if I need them. I take a casual glance at the shots and to my shock and shame they are porn shots w/D in some of the poses!!
I cannot express how horrified I was but I acted quickly and hopefully unemotionally telling PC guy to delete them. I left the room casually but wanted to run screaming!
I had plenty of time to gain composure before seeing D. that night. I told him how I felt and that I shouldn't ever have to see anything like that in my house again. He was reacting predictably, nervously smiling which sort of ticked me off but I can understand it, lots of people do that at the worst times. It's a defensive smile. Yep, plenty to feel defensive about buddy!
Once again poor D is on my list.
I wil not hold this against him though, I have let it go. I write about it only because that's what I do but I have shown him that he's back in my graces again and he hopefully has learned from this.
"Inside every soul, there is a story, and inside every story there is a life. Not every story is happy, some are dark, and sorrow filled. However, every story has a twist. The only way to find this twist is to continue living, even when life seems to fall down and crumble."
"The Dutch city of Drachten has undertaken an unusual experiment in traffic managment.� The roads serving forty-five thousand people are 'verkeersbordvrij': free of nearly all road signs.� Drahten is one of several European test sites for a traffic planning approach called 'unsafe is safe.'� The city has removed its traffic signs, parking meters, and even parking spaces.� The only rules are that drivers should yield to those on their right at an intersection, and that parked cars blocking others will be towed.
The result so far is counterintuitive: a dramatic improvement in vehicular safety.� Without signs to obey mechanically (or, as studies have shown, disobey seventy percent of the time), people are forced to drive more mindfully--operating their cars with more care and attention to surrounding circumstances."
From "The Future of the Internet and How to Stop It", Jonathan L. Zittrain, "Chapter 6: The Lessons of Wikipedia"
hey everyone out there... this is meh first ACTUAL seen journal xDDD i nvr realized that it wasn't public until just a few seconds ago Oo uh... so yeah!! xDDDD
guess dat's it, huh? O.o um... i know 8D
PET PEEVES:
1. ...dogs... (DX they bite oww!)
2. ...racist people...
3. ...mean people...
4. ...the color white... (it's too bland DX)
5. ...when people yap rly loud on cellphones, cause no one rly wants to hear about "your" life >>...
6. ...the number 666... (Oo i have nu idea why! XD)
um... moar to come xD
Facts About Meeeeeeee 8D:
1. My name is Sunlight and i am a hedgehog xD
2. i am vry shy when i met new people (in real life i am XD)
3. i have a boyfriend, his name is Fury, and he is also a hedgehog ^.^
4. i use to have a deviantART account named DancingDevil9 until i was banned 3:
(moar to come later xDDD)
Here again is the one and only oddity commonly known as Annabel, come again to grace these halls of bloggers.
Just kidding. Grace anything, me? You must have me mixed up with someone. Hello again, and�sorry for being gone so long. It has been a busy (and when I say so, I mean it) summer. I've traveled a bit--gotten to see just about my best friend on the face of the planet, who happens to live 5000 kms from me. She lives in just about the most beautiful place I've ever seen. My mother (who I traveled with) disagreed on that count, but I would be completely willing to live there. Gorgeous. I've also gone to horseback riding camp for a week; that was very fun, despite being put on every horse but the one I wanted to ride the most. I also applied for a job I don't want, read a book I highly anticipated and was slightly disappointed by, and got a chance to get together with a few friends I hadn't had a chance to prior to my last post.
Read a few books... none really worth mentioning. Oh, besides Breaking Dawn. But I won't talk about it, because if I do, oh, man, will that post take forever. Depends on whether or not I have the patience to type it all up, one of these days. Then again, I am not reknowned for my patience--rather, I am reknowned for the lack thereof.
So, since I am kind of at loss of what to say, I will say something random that has occurred to me recently. Anyone out there believe in a sixth sense? Ok, wait, hold up. Let me preface this with something one of my favourite book characters (from one of my favourite books, from one of my favourite authors) said: "Every teenager in the world feels like that, feels broken or out of place, different somehow, royalty mistakenly born into a family of peasants." I must say I feel like that all the time, and while I understand that most... some... a number of other people my age feel that way, it's still true for me. Which bemuses me, because I can so barely relate to any�person I know. And now, about to go on a teenage angst rant about the unfairness of life and how special and different I am, I can't help thinking of that and knowing that "You're not so freaking alone as you thought, smart one". Which, since I am an angst-ridden (<-- key word)�teenager, doesn't help whatsoever.
And due to my extreme lack of concentration, I haven't even begun to say what I intended to. So like that quote said, I do think there's something up with me. What? I don't know. But something. And since I don't believe especially in being able to tell the future or having a sixth sense, this is even weirder for me to make anything out of it. But I want to say it to someone. My mother doesn't care. Neither does the rest of my family. So here goes.
Remember a few months ago I mentioned that I went to a family wedding (yes, I did. It's there if you want to look.) and I was all happy for the bride and groom. I don't know if I mentioned THIS, but something weird happened. I saw one of my mom's cousins there, who my mother hadn't seen in a while, and I hadn't either. She was wearing a tight black dress and holding her daughter, who's about 2. And, inexplicably, I looked at her and the only think I could think was, "She's pregnant." See where this is going? There was no evidence of it. It hadn't been mentioned or announced. She didn't have a baby bump. But it was TRUE. She told my mother. That was instance one.
Instance two. More recently, I was driving with my mom and got suddenly really excited. For no reason. Again. I get that often: anticipating nothing. But the feeling persisted, and when I got home, someone told me really great news about something I've been looking forward to a LOT (a movie release date got pushed forward) and I kept on being excited as though that was what I'd been excited about in the first place.
This happens often. I try to dismiss it as my standard oddities, but the pregnant thing especially got to me. So I had to say it SOMEWHERE, to SOMEONE. No sense. Don't know what to do about it... don't know IF there's anything to do about it.
Well, that's all for now. Ranting over. Going to try not to think about my strangeness.
Recommendation: Universe and You, by KT Tunstall. The acoustic version. It's so pretty.
~Annabel
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